He really got all my ideal man’s character. He clean my
house. He can cook. He can give almost all of my basic needs. He maybe a real
tall man, or maybe a small one. I don’t know if his brown or white but only one
thing I assure, his appearance is as good as his character.
When it comes to date, I often come
late and he never did. He is giving me all the time I need to prepare and even
its late, he is willing to wait. He never dictates my decision but he was there
to support and guide me. When I have problems, he never failed to give helpful
advices. He was really awesome for he did not fail me.
There comes a time that my passion
and affection for him was decreased and I know that he was really hurt. I get
lost and I almost give him up. He was just watching when I walked away and
embarrassed him. I drunk whole day and go home late. He was there to wash me up
and change my fully drown clothes. I did an affair with others and I never obey
his commandments when it comes in being in relationship and I have now is a big
failure. I did many bad things that really hurt him much but still, he just
wait for me until I realize all what I’ve done. That time, I come back crying
and waiting for his forgiveness. I ready myself for his words that would hurt
me but instead, he just touches my head and kisses me romantically. He said I
was bad and become separated from him. He also said that he was just waiting
for the right time until I come back to him. That time, I was crying hard for
he accepts me again without hesitation.
But another test strikes us both. I fell in
love. I fell in love with the other guy but he was still there. He was giving
me advice even thought I know it hurts him so much. He advises that I should
not give my all to that common boy I loved. I went to other man’s arms and do
all the affection I can give. He was just watching me. I, once again, become
separated from him and I do some bad stuff because of the man I love. He just
told me that I’m free to do what I want but I should obey his commandments, but
I never did.
This one is the saddest part of my
story and to the very important being in my life. He called me one night and
told me either I choose him or not. It’s really hard on my part to answer him
because I know to myself that I already made a choice. I just bow my head and
sob. He again touches my head and said “I’m still willing to wait”. It really
hurts me so much for I know that even how many times I rejected him, he was
willing to wait even forever. I know that he was just there when I need him
again and I am bad for thinking about replacements. That he was just
replacement for all my heart broken. I love him but I can’t even choose. But
despite all what happened I still believe that this is just a test for us and
he has the better plans.